As I have gone through life, I have always examined the decisions I have made that have left me in a negative situation. I go over them in my head, scrutinizing everyone and seeing what different paths I could have, or would have taken. I think we all do this, in one way, or another, as a kind of learning process. I just realized that the when everything works out and I am the happiest with the outcome of a long set of decisions, it is mostly when I am completely following my instinct, my gut, my heart, or whatever you want to call it.
Don’t get me wrong, I have gotten stuck due to lack of knowledge, but the things that has stopped me from following my instinct the most, are my insecurities. I am done with that. I know what I am capable of and I know that if I don’t have a skill and I really need it, or want it, all I have to do is take a class, or read and practice said skill and I will go back to following my heart. It is not that easy to know what to do in every situation, but if you follow your first gut feeling, you will end up in a good spot. If you are wrong then you need to work on analyzing that decision, so that won’t happen again. Usually if your gut leads you down the wrong path, then that usually means that you need to learn something. I go back home and analyze the F— out of it! Then, I research on that stuff and learn what to do if I am ever in a similar situation again.
If you think about your decisions as a natural progression, it might look like a bunch of branches. Eventually you have a tree. I know that the decisions that I have made for certain parts of my life have left me with some pretty ugly looking trees. I am currently in the process of fixing those dudes. Like my eating habits. That tree is literally looking better and better as of late. My architecture tree has now been replanted because it was really dying already. I am happy that I am now fixing all my trees, so that eventually, I could have a full forest of wonderful looking healthy trees.
