This is the first of many more blogs.
Working and being unemployed are both hard. When you are working, you are stressed out about deadlines, bosses and clients. When you are unemployed, you are worried about job leads and bills pilling up. What is funny is that the bills pile up even while you are working. Lately, I have been keeping myself busy working on projects. I need to focus on my portfolio more; that is for sure. I have also been traveling a bit because for some reason, while I am working, I find it hard to plan a vacation amidst all the madness.
Tim Ferris said in an interview that “if people don’t believe the messenger, it does not matter how good the message is.” I found this interesting because I had been thinking about art for some time. I was listening to the new No Reform mixed tracks and I thought this is good stuff. It took me back to my problems in Architecture school. I remembered when I would get “stuck.” This is what I would paralyze myself with:
What is the next move?
Do I even have it in me?
What if I do it and it is crap?
I need to learn form Z better so that my stuff could look better.
Never did I just smoothly crank out shit! It was always stopped with a barrage of second guessing myself. Now fast forward to today and listening to the No Reform tracks I thought man these are good, people will like them. I told Maria and she said, they do sound good, but there is a lot of good music that no one ever listens to.
That is true. I am certain that there is tons of art, music, poetry, that is good, but no one ever sees, hears, or reads. That is what I think people must get over in order to create. In order to create one must stop second guessing themselves. I am sure any artist will tell you this. I have heard some musicians say that they write music for themselves. I think that is passion. If no one ever listens to it, it must not matter.
So back to good old Tim Ferris, the truth is, if you don’t believe in yourself as a messenger, then you will never let yourself create anything of value. In turn, no one will believe in you as a messenger!
